Damon's in Kindergarten

Damon is LOVING being a big shot kindergartener. I say big shot because he always throws it in Rafe's face that he gets to go to school, and Rafe has to stay at home. Little does he know Rafe gets to do pretty much whatever he wants. He watches the shows he wants, plays with Damon's toys, Rides Damon's bike, get's lunch dates with mom and dad, and Target trips with Mom-which almost always mean something new from the $1 bin.

He's learning so much and I am so glad he has such a great teacher and is soaking it all in. The kid comes home with a new little song for EVERYTHING! Colors, days of the week, and the most random things. I think he sings most of his sentences these days. hahaha but it's working and he knows how to spell colors and the order of the days of the week so now I've found myself putting things to a tune for him if he's struggling with something.

One of my favorite parts of the day is getting him on and off the bus. He gives Rafe and I the biggest hugs and says he loves us, and he's off. Then when he gets home, Rafe usually gets the hug and I get his back pack, shoes, and jacket. He's usually hungry and tired and has quite a few stories to tell about his day. I love hearing all about his day and his friends and all that he's learning.

I emailed his teacher to make sure he's doing ok and that he's not running behind in anything. I told her how I was getting ready to have a baby and just wanted to make sure he's doing ok. Her reply was so sweet. She told me how he is just the sweetest boy and a friend to everyone and that he's right on track. If you know Damon, you know he can get a little distracted so I've been nervous about how he would be at school. So I was so relieved that he's been a good little guy.

I've been loving my one on one time with Rafe. I just let him do whatever he wants and try to make him feel special and like he's got my attention. He loves to cuddle and watch a show or he helps me with little chores around the house. He's just the sweetest quietest kid when Damon isn't around. The two of them together can get a little crazy, but when it's just Rafe he is so quiet. It's weird to me sometimes. He's always such a ball of energy, but sometimes I just think he misses his partner in crime.

Anyways, I sure love these two and how big and independent they are getting. It's going to be quite the adjustment getting back into the newborn stage, but I know they are going to be the best helpers!

Life Lately

I've been trying to soak up these last few weeks with my boys. Not that I won't be seeing them just as much when the baby comes, but adding a newborn is going to make life a little crazy for a while. And where we live, it's going to be getting cold soon. So a few weekends ago, my parents came to visit and we all jumped in the car and headed to yellowstone. It was most of our first times. It was so much fun! Dan and I decided to buy the year pass to all the national parks with the hopes that it will get us out of the house and do some exploring.

We saw old Faithful, and had some ice cream at the lodge. We walked around some of the docks to get a closer look at some of the hot pools. Then to top it off on our way out, we got stuck in a traffic jam for 45 minutes. There were a bunch of buffalo trying to cross the road and it took forever! We did get some cool up close and personal views of them though. But when you're stuck and your 3 year old is yelling from the back seat that he has to go #2....... 45 minutes is FOREVER! Luckily he held it;)

We went back just this last weekend. I have more pictures on my phone. I need to do a giant photo dump on here because I have so many pictures of stuff we've been doing. The weather was perfect this last weekend. The colors are changing and the drive was beautiful.  We went with Tim and his girlfriend, and when we got home Beth and David were here for the weekend. We had fun all weekend playing games and staying up late. The boys loved all the attention, and Dan and I like having other people to entertain the kids for a while. It was nice to have company to keep us busy and our minds off real life for a bit. That sounds dramatic, but you know when there's so much stress sometimes in life that the days just DDRRRRAAAAAAGGGGGGG by, having family here helps speed things up.

The baby is coming in just 10 more days. I can't wait to see his sweet face. But I am loving getting out and doing things with my little fam before life gets a little crazy!

Pregnancy update!

I've been having some complications with this pregnancy and blogged all about it at my other blog!
www.mommybrigade.blogspot.com

Sickness for everybody!!!

I am pretty much ready to pull my hair out. For the last week we have been sick and it's just getting worse and worse. We went to Boise last Wednesday and stayed at my parents house for a few day. While we were there the mountains were all on fire and the smoke was horrible. Rafe and I started coughing up a storm and started feeling pretty crappy. Damon broke out in hives all over his face and arms and hands. I took him to the dr while we were there to see what the heck was going on with him. It looked pretty similar to fifth disease and I wanted to make sure it wasn't that. Turns out it was hives.... Viral hives? I didn't know that was a thing.....And again, it started out almost unrecognizable and each day just got worse and worse. So by the end of our trip Rafe and I had full blown chest and head colds and Damon was starting to clear up a little. 

So here we are, a week later, I am coughing so much and so intensely that my ribs are killing me and I can barely sleep at night even drugged on unisom. It's hard being pregnant because a lot of the good cough medicines aren't allowed. I finally got some robitussin today so we will see how that works. Poor Rafe is so sick. His cough is awful, he's got goopy eyes, a fever, runny nose, the works! So we took him to urgent care today and the amazing dr actually gave us a prescription!! Do you know how many times I have taken my kids in with horrible coughs or colds and we get no help?! So many times that now I wait until they are this bad so we for sure get a prescription. Almost every time they just say it's viral, buy something over the counter that'll be $150, thanks. Then I take them back a few days later and they're like oh yeah, that is bad! Another $150 and a few days wasted that should have been treated with an antibiotic! Ugh! I hate that! So I was thrilled he gave Rafe a prescription. 

We get home and about an hour later I notice Damon had a goopy eye. GREAT!! Then he spikes a fever. I get them in the tub and let them play for a bit in some lukewarm water to see if it'll help because they both felt so miserable they were crying. I didn't have the prescription yet because I guess this Walgreens takes like 10 hours to fill three things. They finally calmed down and said they wanted pancakes for dinner. So I work up the energy to make some pancakes and their favorite blueberry bread. They ate two bites and laid down and were asleep within five minutes. We woke them up for their eye drops and some more medicine then tucked them in bed. Rafe took his eye drops like a champ, Damon took 30 minutes of coaxing and he still freaked out when I gave them to him. They both are miserable and being pregnant and the sickest I have been in probably the whole 6 years we have been married is pretty dang exhausting. I just can't believe this all hit and has escalated to this within the last week. It doesn't help that the air quality is HORRIBLE right now!! I'm sure that's playing a big part to our chest colds. I'm seriously coughing so hard I'm either gagging at the end or almost peeing my pants. Yeah. You're welcome for that.

The only thing helping is my sweet husband and me replaying sweet honey brown in my head..... "Lord Jesus there's a fire!" And "I got bronchitis! Ain't no body got time for that!" Too true sweet honey brown, too true......

So basically what I'm saying is feel bad for this ol pregnant girl and my sick kids, and for sure my husband who probably wants to run away right about now. And if anyone could wipe Jared fogle, josh dugger, Kylie Jenner and her long lost mother Caitlyn Jenner, and bill Cosby off the earth that'd be great. Or we could ship them all to their own island together so they can all be weird perverts together that works too......

Family Pictures/ Pictures of the Boys

One Sunday we decided we should drive up to Cambridge and try and snap some family pics before I got too far into my pregnancy. We have a few family pics that are fairly recent, but I wanted something where we all match and all that. Well turns out, our boys don't really like taking pictures and out of like 200 pictures we maybe got 2 nice family pictures. But we got a lot of the boys that I love! So here's some of my favorites!

Baby Boy #3!!!

Can I just tell you guys how excited I am to have 3 boys???

I can't wait to meet our next little guy and hold him and kiss his cheeks! There is just nothing like having a new baby, and November can't get here fast enough!

So if you've been following along with my blog, you know the last few years have been CRAZY. So we actually really wanted to have another baby about a year ago. That was the plan anyways. But when we started talking about trying for another baby, our life was so hectic we decided it would be better to wait. We thought maybe it would just be a few months, not another year/ year 1/2. Right after we decided to wait I started getting gall bladder attacks. I had no idea what it was at the time and just figured I had an ulcer or something. So the more I researched it, the more I wanted to get it out BEFORE I got pregnant again. I didn't want to risk having to have surgery while I was pregnant and all of that. At the time I didn't have insurance, So I applied to school so I could get student insurance, get out my gallbladder, then have a baby. So I did all that only to find out online students no longer get insurance. At that time we were dead broke and Dan was between clients. My attacks were becoming more frequent and worse so we decided to go see if we could get on Medicaid. The first time they told us we couldn't because he was self employed and his average income over the last year was too high. So we waited a few more months and things didn't improve, so we tried again and were able to. I got in ASAP and got it all taken care of. That was the biggest silver lining to us going through such a hard time. I am so glad I was able to get on some insurance and get that taken care of.

Anyways, I'm rambling, as always. So we started trying right away once I was all healed up. We've been so blessed and never had to "try" for very long before I'm pregnant. This time around was a little different and it took a few months. Dan had been traveling a lot for his job with Jennifer and it was just hard to time everything right.

So I took a test and it was negative. Again. So I just tossed it up on my dresser and tried not to think about it. I thought for sure that that was the month it was going to happen. I was so bummed but tried to just brush it off. Maybe we were under too much stress or it just wasn't the right time. So the next day I was cleaning and I looked at the test again and was feeling all bummed when I saw the faintest second pink line........ I called Dan in and he's like, let's wait a few days and take another one.

Well I'm not a patient person. I lasted one more day then I took another one, and sure enough! There were two pink lines! We were so so excited! We had been stalled for so long and everything in our life was being post poned, so to finally be moving forward with a decent job (we thought!) and a new baby on the way, we were on cloud nine!

The first main symptom I started to notice was how tired I was. I found out I was expecting at 3 weeks, which made that first trimester DRAG on forever!!! I was so tired all the time, then the morning sickness started to set in. We were living with my parents so I knew they would figure it out soon, they knew we wanted to have another baby and had been trying so we told them pretty early on. The morning/all day sickness was so much worse with this baby than with Damon and Rafe. It started earlier and lasted until about 16 weeks and I just couldn't handle food. I didn't throw up. I HATE throwing up and talk myself out of it every time. And I knew it wasn't going to make me feel better so I just would fight it. Everything I ate made me feel so sick. I started taking Unisom so that I could sleep at night, and that stuff is pretty much amazing! It took me a long time to get up and going in the morning, but at least I could sleep. Dan slept on a mattress out in the living room for that whole first trimester because I would just toss and turn all night and keep him up. and he likes falling asleep to movies and I couldn't tune it out. So we slept in seperate beds. Hahaha it worked well at the time, but once we got moved into our new place and got our King bed back, we were pretty happy to be next to eachother again.

Since the morning sickness stuff has stopped, I have been doing great! The only thing that's annoying is heart burn! Like what in the world! That started way too quick too. Braxton hicks probably hit me about 3 times a day. This pregnancy has just been so different. I totally thought I was going to have a girl because of all of the differences. So I was shocked that it was a boy. I was set that it was a girl and had even started buying a few things I just HAD to have. Those are now in a box in the top of the closet hahaha. Someday maybe I will get a girl. I was really happy when it was a boy though. I kept telling Dan if it was a boy I was going to cry. But I didn't and I am kind of relieved in a way. I mean a baby is a baby. They can't be THAT different to raise, but I know boys. I have everything I need for a boy. I LOVE my boys and they are so good that I could have 5 more. If they were hellians and crazy bouncing off the walls everyday, I would probably lose my mind at adding another. But they're the sweetest.

Rafe will almost be 4 by the time this baby comes, which is a much bigger gap that I wanted, but I am looking forward to them being my little helpers. When I had Rafe, Damon was still a baby pretty much and I just rolled with that. But i will love having some extra hands to grab me diapers and wipes and all that. They are going to be the best big brothers. They are so so excited.
The boys want to name him Michael.....but that's not really our style haha. You know it's going to be something off the wall, that you probably haven't heard of too many times, if any. We're used to people either loving or hating our boys' names, and this one won't be any less crazy;)

As of today, I am 23 weeks 3 days. I'm kind of hoping the rest of this pregnancy will fly by. The first part has been slow. But I'm sure before I know it, he will be here. I'm starting to get a little bit of the nesting bug. I pulled out all my baby stuff, which is a ton, and started going through it last week. I had donated a TON of stuff because it's all yellowed from being in the boxes and already been through two boys and I kinda want some new stuff. Damons old bedding set, which I loved, is all yellow and so I kept the blanket and sheet, and tossed the bumper pads and mobile and all the rest. I thought I would have a hard time with that, but I think I'm just ready for some new stuff and to get rid of some of this stuff that takes up so much room. This baby's nursery is going to be navy and white maybe with some gray. It's just going to be simple and cute. No real theme.

This baby kicks so much and is so active. With Rafe my placenta was on the front part of my stomach and I hardly felt him. Damon never ever slept or chilled out, and this baby is very similar. He's always kicking and moving and I love feeling it. It's my favorite part about being pregnant.  I can't wait to see what he looks like because Damon and Rafe looked so different as newborns. Rafe had huge eyes and was our little oompa loompa. His jaundice was so bad for such a long time. And Damon had squinty eyes and dark hair with olive skin. They looked nothing alike, so I can't wait to see what this one will look like!

Damon

Rafe

Actually now that I see those side by side they don't look THAT different. 

Life Lately

I've been meaning to get on here and update my blog for quite a while now, but have just not gotten around to it! I just re read my last post and oh my goodness. Lots has happened since then. Some good some bad.

So let's start with me "starting my bachelors" yeah that lasted a week. The MAIN reason I was going back to school was to get insurance, to get pell grant/student loans, and then of course for the degree. Well to get all my pell grant money I had to take a full semester, 12 credits. I ended up signing up for 13 because I have done online and thought I could handle it. The boys are older and easier to handle most days, but that first week killed me! There is a huge difference between 13 credits for your associates and bachelors. Don't get me wrong, it's all hard but the busy work and the reading was insane!!! I was staying up until 4 am almost every night and spending all my spare time on my classes and totally neglecting the boys to get my school work done. I'm not ready for that life. Damon is going into kindergarten and Rafe preschool this fall. I only get them for so long before they are in school and I didn't want to put that time with them to the side to do my school. The thing that really made me throw in the towel is they stopped offering insurance to online students. So forget that I'm done. Haha I don't quit many things but that was one I just am not putting my time toward right now.

Second, dans job. Oh man. The saga continues! So Jennifer turned out to be a crazy short adventure. It seemed so good and so promising yet all fell to crap within a few short months. She had some personal issues that affected her business and her funds so cloud nine disappeared real fast. And where did we land? Back at square one. Back to job hunting and dead ends and back to stressing about finances and being stuck in a huge rut we just couldn't seem to dig ourselves out of! Luckily we were still living with my parents and had some money to get us by for a few months. So after about 2 more months of job hunting and no success, Dan made a call to one of his long time family friends to ask for advice. That phone call ended up turning into a job. Now remember how bitter and cynical I have turned through the last two years. When Dan came to me all excited about this potential job I thought yeah right! No way it's that easy! So we came down to Idaho falls and he interviewed for the job and met with the CEO and they offered him the job! I picked dan up after the interview and was on the phone with our insurance and I was trying to read his face while I'm talking on the phone and I just was not getting a good vibe. So once I was finally off the phone dan starts telling me how it went and it sounded good but he didn't make it seem like he nailed it. and then he says, so yeah, I got the job! I pulled the car to the side of the road and just started crying. This was what we have been searching for and praying for. It's a normal corporate job, he is doing something he's passionate about and enjoys, and my favorite..... We get a little normalcy to our life again. After everything fell through with Jennifer we both agreed this whole working for yourself stuff is way too hard to start up right now. We gave it a good run and everything we had in us. It was time to go back to reality and stability. And this job has been a huge answer to our prayers.

So now we are in Idaho falls, in a cute little rental with ALL of our stuff and we couldn't be happier. The other day I was cleaning the kitchen after lunch and I started crying because I'm just so happy to finally be settled somewhere with a good job and a normal life. Of course there are still stresses and little things that come up, but nothing like what we were dealing with before! It's just nice to have a routine and schedule and a steady income. Dans job can be really stressful but we both agree it's nothing we can't handle. What we have been through has made us realize how strong we are as a team and how much we can handle. It makes me appreciate the small things so much more and just the simple ness of daily life with my crazy boys. I love cooking dinner for my family every night. I love cleaning and organizing and making this rental our new home. Our boys are so happy and have handled everything so well and I think they can just sense that mom and dad have taken a deep breath and calmed down about life. I know nothing is easy and nothing stays the same for long, but I'm learning to really enjoy the times when things are good and to look forward to growing and changing as life happens.